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Post by Petey on Dec 23, 2005 19:02:09 GMT -5
Yes. I have tons of issues. A lot having to do with my life. everyday. My life sucks. I hate life. Something I'm very familiar with is pain. I feel pain way more than any of my friends would guess. That's because I'm so good at hiding it. For that reason, I consider myself an actress, and I say that I wear a.....happy mask, when I'm around other people, so that I don't bring them down as well. I also have bad trust issues. I have trouble trusting ANYONE. I don't trust anyone. It really sucks. If I knew someone that i could trust and count on and talk to, that'd be nice. . . . . . . . .but i'm just kinda ranting right now. I'm not asking for anything. I don't expect anything from this thing. I'm just...expressing myself...kinda. And I could go on and on, but i'm going now. bye.
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Post by Petey on Feb 11, 2006 0:53:07 GMT -5
um....bleh. My head hurts, i'm bored. I don't quite know what I wrote. It looks weird, it was forever ago. And by the looks of it I was in a really weird mood...or.....whatever. I"m tired. weeeeeeeee. bored. Nothing to do. Sitting at home. bleh, wee, ickyickyickyickpacoooooonya!
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Post by mai on Feb 13, 2006 20:01:31 GMT -5
Yes. I have tons of issues. A lot having to do with my life. everyday. My life sucks. I hate life. Something I'm very familiar with is pain. I feel pain way more than any of my friends would guess. That's because I'm so good at hiding it. For that reason, I consider myself an actress, and I say that I wear a.....happy mask, when I'm around other people, so that I don't bring them down as well. I also have bad trust issues. I have trouble trusting ANYONE. I don't trust anyone. It really sucks. If I knew someone that i could trust and count on and talk to, that'd be nice. . . . . . . . .but i'm just kinda ranting right now. I'm not asking for anything. I don't expect anything from this thing. I'm just...expressing myself...kinda. And I could go on and on, but i'm going now. bye. i am so like that too! i hardly ever express myself when i'm sad cuz i just want life to be happy and everyone around me to be happy. no one would guess. no one ever does, including family and friends. i wish i could help more. just know that i feel the exact same way. even on the trust thing. i don't trust hardly anyone cuz everyone i've ever trusted ended up hurting me or left (as in to a different school and i never talk to them). just know i feel the same way. sorry if that doesn't help much, but it's the best i can do.
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Post by Petey on Feb 13, 2006 23:39:29 GMT -5
I'm sorry that you feel the same way, that sucks. But it is kinda nice to know I'm not the only one. Since I've had trust issues, I've trusted.....one, person. And...he....isn't around anymore.
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Post by Petey on Apr 14, 2006 20:48:40 GMT -5
my life sucks! I hate my mom, my position. Being stuck HERE all the time! I DON'T BELONG IN HERE!!!!! I hate my little brother. I can't stand school. I can't think. I can't remember. I have NOWHERE to turn, nothing to do. I have no one to talk to. no way to get away. No way to go back. I'm loosing my grip. I'm---I---*panting pitifully with uncertainty*
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Post by mai on Apr 16, 2006 22:31:25 GMT -5
i'm so sorry petey. i really want to help. i know what you're going through at least a little bit. my life fell apart last summer, and is still not good. sometimes i don't know what to do, but i don't cry, because i don't know. i think that i feel like it's a weakness, and i've got to be strong. just talk to me petey. i'm completely confidential. i don't like it when people have to go through junk like that, especially when i've been through some of it. i may not know what you are going through completely, but i definitely know what some of it's like.
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Post by Petey on Apr 16, 2006 23:05:26 GMT -5
Do you know, i've been reading your posts and what you're describing sounds so much like me it's scary. So if you need someone to talk to, I may understand better than most. I didn't used to cry. I would never let myself. I wouldn't allow the least bit of emotion past my face. I was falsly happy and random. but it was wrong. I'm not quite like that anymore. I do cry, and I do show emotion. [though i'm not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing]
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Post by mai on Apr 17, 2006 16:29:17 GMT -5
thanks petey. it is a good thing that you show emotion. my friend keeps telling me that it's okay, but somehow i just don't believe him. it's good for you, though.
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Post by Petey on Apr 17, 2006 18:15:53 GMT -5
I'm not okay. I can tell you that much for sure. but I keep on. I'm goin madd with stress though. My mom's driving me crazy. all of my family is. I don't think i can stand it anymore. I need to get away, desperately. but there's no way i can.
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Post by mai on Apr 17, 2006 21:20:41 GMT -5
i know how you feel. i want to hide until i can face my life, but there's nowhere to turn. it's the worse feeling in the world.
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Post by fireflame on Apr 17, 2006 23:34:50 GMT -5
i think me and petey have it worse then u mai well at least i think so
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Post by Petey on Apr 18, 2006 17:28:41 GMT -5
. . . A year ago, i lived a fairly simple life....okay, more than a year ago. probably more like a year and a half ago. oh never mind. three years ago, whatever. . . I lived a simple life, no worries at all. Just play, get good grades, have fun, and....nothing to worry about really. But, looking at me now and where i am it's one heck of a job to even think i lived that kind of life in any part of my life ....i'm really confusing myself. no idea what i'm saying, so i'm stopping now. . . PS i have a headache
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Post by fireflame on Apr 18, 2006 22:56:29 GMT -5
sry petey maybe u are confused cuz the headache is over powering ur brain so u cant think
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Post by Petey on Apr 19, 2006 18:05:36 GMT -5
yeah, definately could've been it.
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Post by fireflame on Apr 20, 2006 22:49:25 GMT -5
yep lets just go with that
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